I'm not obsessed, I promise...

"Why does he have such an unnerving effect one me? His over-whelming good looks maybe? The way his eyes blaze at me? The way he strokes his index finger against his lower lip? "

First chapter in & I'm hooked. Typical.

things to be stupidly happy about:

doing a zumba class in the dark with disco lights

having a dinner party & sleepover with my best girlfriends

having sushi & frozen yogurt in one day

waking up in a silly mood

knowing that every things going to be alright

having a plan

drinking hot chocolate in bed with rich teas and 50 Shades of Grey in hand

heated blankets when your tummy is going through girlie issues

films like Mamma Mia begin shown on tv

flat doughnut peaches

being on antibiotics that are actually working

not wearing make-up all the time

singing Naughty from Matilda the Musical

walking with mummy & her besties hearing their wonderful life advice

getting a hair appointment with a hairdresser I actually like & trust

Oh my gosh, the list could go on. 

Seriously this week has been stupidly positive and exciting, and it's only Tuesday! I have done so much already, and feel as though I am beginning to achieve a lot and getting myself on the right path for both right now and for the future. I know it seems as though such little things shouldn't quite excite me so much, but right now, anything that puts a smile on my face I am being very appreciative of, because, well, why the hell not!? 

What's putting a smile on your beautiful face right now?

Jessica

Xx

sweet dreaming

Sleeping alone brings nightmares, I wish I had you here.

Xx

"Untouched Paradise"

Photos from Julys edition of VOGUE of Karlie Kloss taken by Mario Testino. I adore his photography, he always seems to capture things so beautifully. 

quote from vogue.com:

"“Bahia is a little piece of heaven. It’s really an untouched paradise,” says model Karlie Kloss,who stars in the July issue’s “Brazilian Treatment”—the ten-page portfolio shot by Mario Testino for Vogue in celebration of all things sun and spa."

What do you think of these shots? I have fallen in love with the first one as she looks like a mermaid and considering my love for Ariel, I always have had a soft spot for mermaids! (I am one, that's why...) Also, the 'dancer-shot' is gorgeous. 

Which is your favourite, and why?

Jessica

Xx

Most of us ain't Hollywood actors

I think it's time for a change.

Yes, I said it. I believe it. I mean it. I know it. (the list could go on). I haven't brought this decision on completely by myself, in fact I've had many wonderful people around me to help me make this huge decision. Some things have happened in the recent weeks that I wished had not happened but I can not live by regrets, nor can I turn back time so I may as well look to the future, live in the now and forget the bad that has recently been.

I came across this amazing site yesterday, just when I needed it the most. 

Everything happens for a reason

please read it, especially if you're needing a little 'pick-me-up'! 

I am ready to take on a new challenge. Whether this means I stay on the same path as I have been for years or diverting off in a different direction, who knows? This week I am preparing for lots of tears, upsets, arguments until I decide on a path I may be content with. I want to be an actress (and this will always stand) but right now, I need to focus on something a little more direct. I need to feel as though I am achieving something, getting somewhere and not feeling as lost as I've felt recently. Sometimes, when you are doing something so difficult such as trying to achieve a career as an actress, you can feel as though you take one step forward and another ten back. This, for me, right now isn't helping me in a personal way. I need to see some kind of progress, whether that's in a career sense, within a relationship or even just in myself, I just need to see it and feel it. Probably taking a while out of this harsh audition and rejection process I may gain something which I would never have gained if I didn't make this leap. I know, I will always want to do this. I want to be on stage, entertaining, performing, making people smile, laugh, cry...but maybe some time away will make it more possible than holding on in an unhealthy way. Plus, there's more to life. And the more of life I see, the better I will be in the end at this 'acting-thing'! Haha! But it's true, it isn't the end of me trying. It's just the beginning.

Jessica

Xx