Most of us ain't Hollywood actors

I think it's time for a change.

Yes, I said it. I believe it. I mean it. I know it. (the list could go on). I haven't brought this decision on completely by myself, in fact I've had many wonderful people around me to help me make this huge decision. Some things have happened in the recent weeks that I wished had not happened but I can not live by regrets, nor can I turn back time so I may as well look to the future, live in the now and forget the bad that has recently been.

I came across this amazing site yesterday, just when I needed it the most. 

Everything happens for a reason

please read it, especially if you're needing a little 'pick-me-up'! 

I am ready to take on a new challenge. Whether this means I stay on the same path as I have been for years or diverting off in a different direction, who knows? This week I am preparing for lots of tears, upsets, arguments until I decide on a path I may be content with. I want to be an actress (and this will always stand) but right now, I need to focus on something a little more direct. I need to feel as though I am achieving something, getting somewhere and not feeling as lost as I've felt recently. Sometimes, when you are doing something so difficult such as trying to achieve a career as an actress, you can feel as though you take one step forward and another ten back. This, for me, right now isn't helping me in a personal way. I need to see some kind of progress, whether that's in a career sense, within a relationship or even just in myself, I just need to see it and feel it. Probably taking a while out of this harsh audition and rejection process I may gain something which I would never have gained if I didn't make this leap. I know, I will always want to do this. I want to be on stage, entertaining, performing, making people smile, laugh, cry...but maybe some time away will make it more possible than holding on in an unhealthy way. Plus, there's more to life. And the more of life I see, the better I will be in the end at this 'acting-thing'! Haha! But it's true, it isn't the end of me trying. It's just the beginning.

Jessica

Xx

Fall at your feet

I'm a sucker for boys who can sing & play guitar. 

Ben Howard, Ed Sheeran & Bon Iver are all up there in my top five. 

So when I find out Ben Howard has done the most incredible cover of one of my secret favourite songs right now, I immediately think 'Share on blog NOW'! I do hope you all love this as much as I do...

Are you a fan?

Jessica 

Xx

Addicted

And although I'm 21, I still eat Petits Fillous chocolate deserts, get excited about watching My Little Pony the Movie and love the cheesy teeny-boppy song Call Me Maybe. By 'love' I mean literally addicted.

Cheesy video to make you smile. Don't pretend you don't sing along to this with a hairbrush and a mirror!

This makes it a little more 'grown up' I think ??

Am I alone in this?

Jessica

Xx

Naked and Famous

Happy St.George's Day all...It's a Monday, the sun is shining and I'm holding on to the hope that this week will be sunny, smiley and lots of fun! 

I spent my evening drooling over all the items I wish to order from Nasty Gal. Yet I don't think spending £400 on clothes right now is quite plausible. Although part of me would argue otherwise...fashion does demand my purse and the giving up of more important things...like bills and food! But I don't really have the money to spend right now. So all is on my wish list instead! Although I may order some new sunnies... The House Of Harlow Chelsea Shades in Leopard as they are just to die for!

How incredible? Nasty Gal is my new favourite online shop...Check it out here

 Anyway, as usual I've woken up to a large mug of coffee and a few episodes of 90210 first season. Living the life. I have dance this evening, back in London town. I'm ready to work my tired ass off, it's been far too long and I can feel the affects already! It's April, nearing May and I want to start booking holidays and festivals, sorting summer out and getting a bod worth flaunting on the beach. Wish me luck.

Jessica

Xx

Don't know how

Yes, I did. And for a while wonderland is definitely the best place to be. Key word 'while'. Not forever. However, if I had the key to go back to wonderland, I would.

What's your Wonderland?

found this song tonight...I'm obviously obsessed with it already!

Jessica

Xx

Bittersweet

watch & listen

Jessica 

Xx