It's Simple Darling

So, it's been a while since I've blogged. But I'm back. So less of the worrying ;)

I am proud to say I am now a qualified Personal Trainer, Zumba Instructor and Fitness Professional. And I had my first ever job interview the other day, in fact I had two, and I can not believe I am saying this, but I got both jobs!! So the choice is mine. W-O-W. Not only are they wonderful job offers for my first job, and a fantastic place to start my career, the location is a dream as the job is in Covent Garden!

Celebrate your successes with parties, wine and lots and lots of laughter 

As I have not blogged in a long time, I decided to take a look at my older posts, and strangely enough one of my first posts called 'No.4' told about what I would love to do before I die. Slightly morbid I know. But then again, to look at it now, it's quite nice to know I am able to put a tick by some of those things! I had written:

To have been to drama school, kept a blog going, fall in love, have children, get married, work with incredible directors, be silly, learn from my mistakes, buy a house, decorate it (many a times), eat without a care in the world, improve my singing, become the best dancer I can be, watch more films, work with robert pattinson (have sex with robert pattinson), be in Spring Awakening, eat meat again, make more friends, travel the world, find inner peace...The list is endless, I promise.

Ok, I have not had children, gotten married or had sex with Robert Pattinson BUT...

I now eat meat

My blog, although had a little break, is still going

I have fallen in love, been in a relationship for 8 months now and life is good

I watch more films, laugh more and I can say I have learnt from some of my mistakes

So all in all, I am achieving my life long dreams slowly but surely. As some things have changed, I am going to write a new one.

Jessica 

Xx 

Hair issues

I have an issue. 

I can not decide whether or not to go back blonde/blonde-ish or stay my red colour.

This is me blonde.

What do we think?

Help.

X

dance school

Next week, I begin a summer course at Laban Trinity Dance which I am ridiculously excited for. I have literally been sorting my dance attire out today and practising a few things as I feel I am so unfit and really not that flexible at the moment so I'm a tad scared I'll be terrible and stand out like a sore thumb! But fingers crossed this won't be the case. 

I'm going to take lots of photos over the next two weeks and hopefully then review my course and have more decisions made about whether I am strong enough to audition for dance schools etc. It's a tough one, but I think this course will help me see where I stand in the ranking!

Anyway, purely for my entertainment and hopefully some of you will enjoy it too, I have put together some beautiful photographs of incredible dancers to get me in the dancing-spirit (not that that is too hard!). Enjoy!

Jessica

Xx

Andrew Gallimore explores the bright future of beauty.

My brother once again shocking the whole family with his quirky videos and pictures. Oh the joys of being a model! Scary video but the make-up is absolutely incredible. I want it done for a shoot!

I have recently worked at Nova Festival for an acting job for The Flicker Club which if you ask me was totally creepy as well. We all had to wear rabbit masks promoting Jan Svankmajer's 1988 film version of Alice in Wonderland. It was a strange job and we had to do it in the pouring rain and muddy fields but we had a lot of fun and got some really cool photographs.

Ok, so admittedly my brothers pictures are oh so cool and mine are just strange...but, hey ho!

What do you think?!

Jessica 

Xx

Most of us ain't Hollywood actors

I think it's time for a change.

Yes, I said it. I believe it. I mean it. I know it. (the list could go on). I haven't brought this decision on completely by myself, in fact I've had many wonderful people around me to help me make this huge decision. Some things have happened in the recent weeks that I wished had not happened but I can not live by regrets, nor can I turn back time so I may as well look to the future, live in the now and forget the bad that has recently been.

I came across this amazing site yesterday, just when I needed it the most. 

Everything happens for a reason

please read it, especially if you're needing a little 'pick-me-up'! 

I am ready to take on a new challenge. Whether this means I stay on the same path as I have been for years or diverting off in a different direction, who knows? This week I am preparing for lots of tears, upsets, arguments until I decide on a path I may be content with. I want to be an actress (and this will always stand) but right now, I need to focus on something a little more direct. I need to feel as though I am achieving something, getting somewhere and not feeling as lost as I've felt recently. Sometimes, when you are doing something so difficult such as trying to achieve a career as an actress, you can feel as though you take one step forward and another ten back. This, for me, right now isn't helping me in a personal way. I need to see some kind of progress, whether that's in a career sense, within a relationship or even just in myself, I just need to see it and feel it. Probably taking a while out of this harsh audition and rejection process I may gain something which I would never have gained if I didn't make this leap. I know, I will always want to do this. I want to be on stage, entertaining, performing, making people smile, laugh, cry...but maybe some time away will make it more possible than holding on in an unhealthy way. Plus, there's more to life. And the more of life I see, the better I will be in the end at this 'acting-thing'! Haha! But it's true, it isn't the end of me trying. It's just the beginning.

Jessica

Xx

Kiss from me to you

Red lips at the ready. I'm so prepared for anything when I feel this good.

Off to register at my local library, write a CV, do my yummy food shopping (on a damn budget that is) and possibly go to a workout class for good measure, if not maybe just a nice stroll with a book I have gotten out from the library!

As I have just finished my year at East 15 Acting school in London, I am now looking for jobs to do with television, film, extra work, a runner and also any auditions - if anyone has any connections with agents or television crews/casting directors or even just ideas and tips on how to go about it, please let me know, I'd really really appreciate it. London based by the way. Thank-you so much!

P.s. get in touch if you are actors in London, I'd love to hear about your experiences in the business so far!!

Big love, Jessica

Xx

Saturday is my day

Saturday is coming to a close and although I have literally done nothing today, I feel as though I've achieved a lot. Plus I have enjoyed my nothing-ness day! It's as if I really needed a day like today. My head feels clear, my room is clean, I am happy and I know I'll have lots of lovely sleep tonight!

Today, as I said, hasn't been filled with lots of major plans - however I seem to have done a few bits and bobs and just made it a very leisurely saturday. It has indeed been wonderful.

I popped to do my food shop and picked up some others bits and bobs to keep me entertained today!

Oh the colours are too pretty!

I chose 208 PAPARAZZI for my girlie mood

Then I went wild and added some sparkles...I think I'm still a 6 year old girl!

I had my performances of Animal Farm yesterday, which to my very surprise, actually went ok! I admittedly did not enjoy the whole process of being in that play, however, the performances were fun and the audience appeared to enjoy themselves. It wasn't the best show of the week, I know that! However, to have made everyone laugh and knowing everyone in that audience smiled that evening because of us - well that's enough for me! It's over now anyway and I am very happy to say that for my last project at East 15 Acting school I have been picked by the brilliant director Hamish Gray (who has recently been in Salmon Fishing In The Yemen) to be in I Remember Mama by John Van Druten! Plus I am working with my best friends on it as we were all picked by him (privileged!). This news has made my weekend!

I bought this bubble bath purely because of this little quote on the bottle! (I love it!) Oh, and it smells divine.

I made a yummy smoked salmon dinner mmm

This song is amazing to put on when meditating & relaxing

I did a short amount of yoga & meditation to get me sleepy before bed

And now Saturday is over and I'm in bed watching Friends. The little things are what count...do something every day to make yourself smile. It makes a world of difference!

And now I'm watching Friends in bed with a Vanilla tea!

I hope everyone has had a relaxing saturday too.

Night night sweet dreams!

Jessica

Xx

Now you're in my way

Wow. Bad day. In fact, not to be too negative, a terrible day. I had nightmares all night (and bloody real ones too...) therefore I had no sleep, woke up with bad thoughts and I haven't stop thinking about the nightmares all day. I feel so horrible.

Please, stay out of my dreams tonight. I beg you.

My lovely outfit. If only I had good legs!

Also, I am in a performance of Animal Farm tomorrow, which I'm fretting about. I hate the fact I have to be an animal and I hate the fact that it's tomorrow and we have yet to do a full run-through (would you believe it). The joys of having an unorganised director and drama school. I prefer to be organised, on-top of things and excited for a performance, other wise my anxiety levels are awful. Yay.

On a positive note...

I went shopping, bought a beautiful pair of shoes from River Island, visited the Disney shop (which always cheers me up), started making my friends birthday present & had a wonderful dinner with my best friend Sophie (who never ever fails to make me feel better). But this was at the weekend. So since then, things have gone a little down hill...

My lovely new shoes from River Island. I'm thinking they'll go beautifully with my leopard print 3/4 length dress!

Me (Ariel) and Sophie (Belle) at the Disney store. These dolls are on my wish list for sure!

Anyway, I hope tomorrow brings a better day. I need some good sleep, if anyone had wonderful sleeping advise I'd sure appreciate it! 

Night all

Jessica

Xx

(use a condom!)

My new crop top from H&M for the Fashion Against AIDS range (love).

You should check out the H&M Fashion Against AIDS range as it's truly amazing. Plus 25% of the money is donated towards HIV/AIDS education and prevention projects. So it's fashion that makes you feel like you're doing something good too! Winner.

Jessica

Xx

Addicted

And although I'm 21, I still eat Petits Fillous chocolate deserts, get excited about watching My Little Pony the Movie and love the cheesy teeny-boppy song Call Me Maybe. By 'love' I mean literally addicted.

Cheesy video to make you smile. Don't pretend you don't sing along to this with a hairbrush and a mirror!

This makes it a little more 'grown up' I think ??

Am I alone in this?

Jessica

Xx

Now

When I suddenly feel things are going right, I admittedly get a little scared. I get scared because things can only last a certain amount of time. But I am working very hard on being positive, staying cheery and not thinking about the consequences before anything has even happened. 

I fear failing all the time in most or all aspects of my life. This is something I want to work on. I want to be ok with being wrong/failing. We only learn this way.

Live in the now. Failing is ok.

My cousin showed me this & I think it's so true.

I have had a great weekend so far. Friday night included a Skins-like party. Mostly spent in the bathroom. This sparks interest... It's interesting, but I'm not telling. And Saturday, day in bed. Saturday night meal time at the Indian restaurant with three of my closest friends. Sunday. Oh how I love a Sunday, especially knowing I also have the Monday free (love long weekends). I have spent the day make-up free. Chilled out and eaten lots of yummy foods. Including a cheeky Petits Fillous chocolate desert. Yes, and I loved it. 

I hope you are all enjoying your long weekends.

Jessica

Xx

I think I want to marry you

From being bed bound due to the flu to attending a magical wedding this weekend - I feel I've literally done it all! And right now my body is definitely feeling the affects. I'm tired, slightly emotional and feel very sluggish. I will sleep extremely well tonight, although I have a lot to think about. So maybe not?

Anyway, I've had my hair done which was in desperate need of a cut. Even after having two inches off the load, everyone still says how long it is! It was weird actually, I was thinking about my hair when getting it done and I figured all the things I hated about myself as a child are now the only things I actually like about myself: ginger hair, thick hair and long hair. Nightmare growing up - knots, bullying and attempting to dry it took what seemed like forever...now I'm ginger and proud and really thank god about the fact I have lots of hair!!

The wedding I went to was absolutely wonderful. Just made me all excited for planning mine. Although I yet to have a man in my life, nor do I think I'm ready for marriage, but still...I'm only a girl, I get excited about these things!

Wearing all Zara, including shoes. A peace bracelet from Topshop and my Thomas Sabo charm bracelet.

I fell in love with my outfit when I spotted the pieces from Zara this week! The peach feathered skirt is so much fun and very fitting with the pastel colours in right now! The shoes are black suede, Zara Basics - amazing! Cheap but so so beautiful and comfortable too! Really love getting dressed up for events, and this event was so brilliant, it made it even more worth it! I know I wasn't the one getting married, but still, I felt like a princess for the day. Happy days.

My Mum and I having the time of our lives in the photo booth at the wedding!

They had a photo booth at the evening party which was held by EventBooths.co.uk which I'd recommend to anyone having a party or a wedding because it is just so much fun and you get photos that you'll remember and be able to laugh at forever! The photos are hilarious, especially after a few too many vinos...!

I have so much on my mind right now that I need some sort of weekly plan. If I don't plan I will feel very unsteady. I know that decision making is not my forte, I wish I could employ someone to make  my decisions for me...oh and to do my hair daily! I think that would solve all my problems.

Hope you all enjoyed your week!

Jessica

Xx

Unlucky

So it's Friday the 13th. I'm freaking out. 

Not only is it a scary/unlucky day, but for me potentially even worse...I broke a mirror yesterday. Yes, you read it correctly...I broke a mirror. That's what? 7 years bad luck? As if I need that!!

So I'm treading on thin ice today, so nervous that I'll be hit by lightening or chased by a bull or maybe even poisoned by my seemingly nice housemates...Right now I believe anything could happen! 

I've decided a nice calm yoga class in central london may help the nerves finished off with a quick trip to Portobello Road for a bit of fashion stalking and then off to Wholefoods Market for dinner. I'm not sure who I think I am, but to hell with it, my student loan comes in Monday so I'll treat myself.

I shall report back later my lovelies.

What's your Friday plan?

Wish me luck. Please. I need it.

Jessica

Xx

Happy Easter

Just want to wish everyone a happy easter. Enjoy your day, fill it with smiles, laughter and obviously try and fit in some of your favourite chocolate!

My favourite chocolate- an malteaser bunny!!

Jessica

Xx

Don't know how

Yes, I did. And for a while wonderland is definitely the best place to be. Key word 'while'. Not forever. However, if I had the key to go back to wonderland, I would.

What's your Wonderland?

found this song tonight...I'm obviously obsessed with it already!

Jessica

Xx

Easy, yeah right!

This is where I need to go right now...I read that almost 80% of illnesses and bad health you have is down to stress

So, as you may not know much about me...I thought I'd fill you in. I love anything inspirational, dream-like, beautiful and old-fashioned. I like to be around people, have a busy schedule and dance as much as possible (even if it may just be in my room!). Films, music and theatre are what keep me very much sane...as I said, I get bored easily so enjoy a busy schedule. Don't get me wrong, I love my winding down time. I enjoy a bubble bath, an early night and a good long sleep, but still, it's usually only truly enjoyed if my life has been hectic! Which at this very moment, it definitely is not. So I'm bored, a little frustrated and I end up being very lazy (which I hate!). Laziness- what an ugly word! And let me tell you something, laziness definitely is making me appear ugly. I have (for some reason or another) just got a skin infection...on my face. Lucky me! Plus my laziness is reflecting my body. I feel a little easter weight gain has creeped up on me. This makes me sad. But I know, I go back to London soon & my routine kicks back in in less than two weeks and I will soon find my way back to optimal health. (YAY)

However, it has got me thinking that in the future, to be who I want to be and have the lifestyle I desire to have, I have to be a busy lady with a job that keeps me happy and motivated, or else I WILL become an ugly lazy so and so. Which is NOT what I want in life.

Anyway, the point of this post is to inspire you (and myself) with some motivational quotes, pictures and possibly even a video...I'll see what I find.

We are what we repeatedly do. Excellence, therefore, is not an act but a habit.
Aristotle

Work spares us from three evils: boredom, vice, and need.
Voltaire

You cannot plough a field by
turning it over in your mind.
Author Unknown

There are no shortcuts to any place worth going.
Beverly Sills

You only ever grow as a human being if you're outside your comfort zone.
Percy Cerutty

Miley Cyrus is so inspiring at the moment. She's running, walking, doing pilates all the time! And it's showing in her amazingly slim and toned body. She is a definite inspiration to me at the moment to be very healthy. She promotes a good healthy body image I think.

As I am a dancer, I am always inspired by dance photography. Dancers are so motivated & like to push themselves to get results. I have recently been practising this ^ and although I haven't quite got to her standard, I think I could get there if I keep pushing myself.

yes, this is my attempt!

Miranda Kerr, purely because her body (although I'm sure a lot of it is down to genes) she must work very hard to maintain a lean, curvy, beautiful body like this one!

Demi Lovato is an inspiration to me at the moment because she has recently come out to the world about her eating and self harming issues. She has been receiving help for it but at the same time, inspiring many others to get help and speak up about their own issues. So inspirational to me. Also she is motivating because she must work so hard every day to fight the demons, trust me that's work in itself. 

Victoria Secret models...well their bodies just reflect hard work and motivation. Some may say unrealistic, I disagree. But I will say they have tons of help, nutritionists, trainers and advice soooo it isn't something to aspire to be as such, more just to admire!

Sorry if this doesn't inspire you...if it doesn't though...think about what motivates you in life? 

Jessica

Xx